I used to think that my ex used to always give me the guilt trips whenever he does something wrong when i talk to him about it. Because i'd always end up feeling utterly miserable and i'd be the one apologizing to him the next moment (and the next, and the next..which so often only end up him saying "forget it"). It then makes me forget and forgive all the things he had done; He had managed to get away with things, all the time i'd say.

But yet today, i realised i was probably wrong more than half the times about the guilt trips.

If not, why would/did i feel bad in the first place?

Deep down, i probably knew i did wrong..

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Self-righteousness.

Somehow, with my seemingly obstinate self-righteousness, especially when fueled with intense emotions like longing, anger or even love, i tend to speak my mind without filtering; Blatant arrogance. 

I'd be so convinced that i was right and the other party was wrong, that i often neglect what the other person feels or thinks.. at that time. Which ended with me hurting the pride, dignity and feelings of other; and even more so, i disregarded the sincerity of other's speech.

Screw my self-righteousness.

Some people ended up being more hurt than i was.

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Sigh.

I realised how much i always think i've been doing good enough, if not the best. Damn the virgoan in me. Worse, i preach to people what i want them to become when i don't even practise what i preach.

To think of how much i hate double standards..

I can't hate myself less than anyone could =/