Saturday. Special priviledge to watch Serpent Ash Live! skirmish jamming.
(Epic mouuuuu.. )

If they said they were pretty pretty-dammmmmnnn sloppy that day, i don't know how are they like when they're really 'tight' (kick ash mouuuu..). My ears were ringing when i came out of the studio..

Just like how Ryo sung the lyrics:

"I want out.. ..out.. ...out....."

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It's seeing all of them enjoying themselves out (the Rapture mouuuuu.. xD), doing something they love; that suddenly it feels..

... how long haven't i felt really happy for doing something that i really, really like?

Reminds me of how much i used to look forward to jamming sessions.. or just hanging out with my bandmates. I just remembered how we too, used to have a rather huge musician ego.. even judging how amateur we were lol. 

But those were the days..

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I wonder what do i really, really like now, anyway?

It's been months ago since the foos mania season ended.. and although sometimes it feels really happy to be able to score one very nice, true goal, the feeling disappears as soon as all 9 balls finally goes down the hole.

Such short-lived happiness.

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Somehow, it feels like i haven't really been truly happy for a long, long time..

There is a void that had been there all these while.